Drinking

On Saturday I went out. Whaoooo. I don't get out enough so each time I do, it's a monumental occassion. I drank... a lot. At the time it was good, chocolate martini, ceasar, gin, beer and wine. Each one tastier than the next. And for what?

My drunken sleep, my groggy awakening with a hint of drunkeness and bam... hang over. Now I am blessed/cursed with getting minor hangovers. I am foggy, cranky, slow and moody. These may seem mild symptoms but in hindsight, they dent and tarnish my character.

For YEARS, I drank like a fish, squandering my money and time to feel a bit more free and happy for a couple hours. The days that followed were ruined, little to no ambition, my reputation tainted and my bank account... Sigh.

For YEARS, I lived like this! By nature I am sensitive. SO being hungover exaggerated this, which in turn, made me a basket case.

Hindsight is a great thing eh?! Well, my past is tarnished but now I need to get the baking soda, salt and vinegar out to clean it up.

Good bye, so long, farewell my liquid friend!

Saddened

Well my husband and I worked out our finances last night. Bleak. I don't understand how people live these days. It seems like everyone carries a debt. I am not comfortable carrying a debt, it's heavy and depressing. You start to feel guilty spending money on 'frivolous' things! It's the frivol that brightens a day! I am wearing clothes that are five years old, thank god I have a classic style so it's all IN style still.

It looks like we either have to find more income or move. I alread feel strapped for time! Mother duties, household duties, prep for work and wifeliness. Not one job is done well. That bothers me.

Any whine... I need pull my chin up and think of what I can do to create some cash in a reasonable fashion. My immediate options are tutoring, taking an international student or prostitution! HA HA! Time management!

Yes, I could go back to work full time but then someone else raises my children. That's not for us. I see the effects of this daycare raised society and I don't like what I see. A child needs their parents attention, guidance etc... and they will always desire that over anyone else!

Anyway, I am rambling, something I am good at. Remember I am trying to learn to write through this venue. So I shall come to a close.

Hopeful

I have read seveal blogs on different topics and I am amazed at what is shared and how well things are written. While I am not a strong writer, I enjoy the challenge. I am starting this blog to communicate, learn to write better and share.

That's all.