Sunday, December 27, 2009

Depression

For most of my life I struggled with depression. As a teenager it wasn't the IN thing to be, like it seems to be now. What anti depressant do you take? Oh mine is... Meds. a slippery slope.

ANYWAYs (as Wy would say), for three months I've eaten little to NO processed foods. I've had two periods in that mix. And I have to say... my depressed state has lessened to just sadness that passes. Or a passing emotions. Not ones that stuck and festered into an abyss. When I mentioned this to A, he shared that in his reading with those who ate Primal, their depression dissipated.

This past two weeks has been a time of pms and over indulgence of sugars, processed foods and some wheat... My energy level plummeted, my mood was riding a crazy roller coaster, my sadness was a pinch more than a passing emotion and my brain was hazed. Yes, PMS would play a roll is some of that but the ones prior to this one, I was eating well, and didn't experience the above.

The indulgences have clarified and solidified a great deal for me. SO exciting! For year (geez, my whole life), what I ate contributed and exaggerated my weaknesses. While I still have these weaknesses, they aren't taking over. I learned eating primal, for me, helps me be a better and healthier person.

I want to go on a speaking tour to share this with parents and children. Adults will do as they wish... but if they have children.... they could help their children in such a simple way. In the process, they would feel better! They could eliminate medicating their children.

I am grateful to Ash and that blog I found challenging me to a 30 day challenge! I must have been ready. For years, I harassed Ash and made fun of him, I am sorry for that.

When you eliminate a safety, scariness takes over for a bit but the end result... renewal! THEN you can either keep that safety or go with the renewed safety.

Ahhhhhhhhh. Such relief! Imagine how I will feel once I start exercising regularly!!! WATCH OUT!

Friday, December 18, 2009

Tis the Season

Well I haven't had many festive temptation due to my lifestyle but today I did. And I caved. Ha ha, no pun intended. I had some brownies, puff pastry with some super tasty caramelized onions and ice cream. How do I feel?
One word: WEIRD.
Some others things.... bloated, stuffed up, tingly, tired, jittery....

Now with doing without for so long, the above 'issues'  would become a norm... I wouldn't KNOW that what I was eating contributed to it. It wouldn't seem odd to feel those things, like it does now.

There is NO guilt, surprisingly, attached to my consumption. I wanted it, I ate it. It was nice to eat things that were familiar and enjoyed in the past. While I did enjoy it this time around it was different. I didn't NEED to have another piece and the small amount I had was satiating. So maybe I've learned some portion control through this?

Lovin' it.