Ugh!

my oh my.

i am dragging my fing feet on this.

i cannot find the drive to get back on the fing boulder.

this is NOT to say I've reverted to my ol' ways completely but

the struggle. Oh THE STRUGGLE!

i could find all kinds of excuses, i think. 

but what's the point to that.

Grr.

Grr.

Ugh.

Pout..

Sigh.

Pulling the bone out of my frazzled hair.

On a brighter more pleasant note... yes there is one.

I sprinted today. If you saw me you'd probably say

um, that was a sprint?

But for this ol' girl, it was.

and let me tell you..............

IT FELT FABULOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hopefully tomorrow will be kind to me.

i am not one for muscle pain.

While I am terrible disappointed in my lack of drive,

it is what it is.

it doesn't mean stop.

it means trudge on

you will

get

 there.

Smiles.

Chinese

Mmmm but tsk tsk tsk!

S...L...O...W

Well it's been WHAT a WEEK? Withdrawal, done. Headaches and stomach blahs. At least they didn't last a couple weeks like before! A bonus!
I didn't Griner a couple times, walking. Felt good but didn't FEEL it. I'd like to try at least one sprint but am fearful of doing damage! Then where will I be?

This week I shall get on the bandwagon for floor work and weights. When I did weights the last time, my shoulder issue flared. Not sure if it was the reps or somethings else but PAIN! Ash knows of my goals, so he better not complain when I say... I am off for a walk.

Yesterday... I wore a bathing suit. Mind you it was surfing short (too tight but fit... a medium!) and a bikini top, I was exposed. Liberating. I swam and played, good for the soul. I did swim to the rope and back twice. Boy do I love swimming. I wish the public pool didn't have chlorine! And germs, and other people and and and! LOL!

I have 25 days to get into shape. While I may not be THERE by August 6th, I certainly will have a solid base. Ah too feel strong and agile!

I remember a time in my life where I swam one day and did weights the other. I loved the routine and how I felt. Activities were effortless. I floated up stairs! I want that feeling again. Unfortunately my back holds me back. Ha. Or I allow it too. Fear I guess it would be. Also having two kids doesn't allow me to have that part time job of getting into shape. I believe the key back then was it was something to do, not to get into shape. I was running solo here in BC for the summer. No real friends, no commitments except work.

As for eating... I haven't been strict like last time. Just no more treats. I should cut back on the chocolate but that's normal for me. When other things go, I go over the moon with what I 'can' until I find balance. It's lovely learning about yourself. Comfort and ease comes with it. Not that frantic feeling of what the hell is up. I know. The power of the KNOW.

I have had a bit of rice with certain dishes. Potatoes once. Oh and the Bellini and appies. Which made me feel instantly BLAH. And frankly, the appies didn't even taste good going down. I kept eating some hoping the yukky factor would subside with each bite. Didn't work. Thank goodness.

Feeling good about the start but it feels slow in results. Ha. Instant gratification generation!

Off to eat a green veg!

Oh BABE!

While I don't feel good, mentally oh babe!
Two walks.
The first one was sadly painful, but the second one... oh babe!

Need to eat more protein. Feeling low on the energy.

Try this.... whipping cream (unwhipped), salted almonds and coconut blended to crumbs, mini chocolate chips (wee cheat) and STRAWBERRIES. Oh babe!!!!!!!!

Smiles.

Back to the Start

Well after falling off the Paleo boulder for longer than I care to share...  I am crawling back on.

THIRTY DAYS starts over. I anticipate some discomforts, sigh. But I NOW know what to expect from my hard work.  Energy. Stability. Better complexion. Sleeping improvements. Ah!

In addition to the eating changes, I will do exercise as well. I want to be stronger and less flabby. It was all fine and dandy to lose that weight but the leftover mass h
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                           g there like a ?? I've come up empty. Damn.

I will be trim and fit by

August 5, 2010.

Off to get my loin cloth back on. Where is my club? Bone for my hair?

Grunt. Grunt.