Thursday, March 18, 2010

Oh Crap.

For "shame"... I fell off the wagon and hit my f head. Hell who am I kidding, I jumped off. I was well aware of what I was doing! I will say... there wasn't much guilt. Perhaps I need to reacquaint myself with this force so I behave. Nah, that's cheap and never works.

Well I feel like CRAP. Exactly how, let me tell you...

Sluggish, cranky, wanting my next fix, obsessive, bloated, tired, feeling fat..... blah blah blah (Ke$ha song).... All for WHAT??? Cheap thrills. CHEAP I say. Booze, cake, chips, birds nests (chow mien noodles, marshmallow and Cadbury mini eggs)... Sigh. Pure utter fluff.

As always, I am glad when I slip, although this was a landslide ;[! It solidifies what I know is true for me. It's been 6 months... half a friggin' year! Imagine that. Woot woot! Okay, those of you who are by the books, with the slippin' and sliddin' it's probably 5.2 months? LOL!

With all this, I haven't gained any substantial weight, it fluctuated 5 pounds, which I consider water weight. So that's great however, the bloating, ugh. It feels like I've put it all back on. Wouldn't I be a wreck if I did... for two weeks of slippin'! Phew. I came out of this unscathed, I might not be that lucky next time. Hey there won't BE a NEXT time damn-it.

Okay... here's to re focusing.

2 comments:

  1. Ok, well for a few hours it was FUN! And you didn't need to eat all of those nests!! LOL

    I hear ya sista on the feelin' like crap for sliding, but gettin' back on is so much easier than it once was..... and high five for six!

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  2. I gotta say, no matter how many times I check the blog to see if there's anything new, it's totally worth it 'cause that picture just cracks me up!

    The party was a blast, cheap thrills and all, as thrills don't come often or easy now that we're entering MIDDLE AGEDNESS! May the next 40 be even better.

    --D.

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