For "shame"... I fell off the wagon and hit my f head. Hell who am I kidding, I jumped off. I was well aware of what I was doing! I will say... there wasn't much guilt. Perhaps I need to reacquaint myself with this force so I behave. Nah, that's cheap and never works.
Well I feel like CRAP. Exactly how, let me tell you...
Sluggish, cranky, wanting my next fix, obsessive, bloated, tired, feeling fat..... blah blah blah (Ke$ha song).... All for WHAT??? Cheap thrills. CHEAP I say. Booze, cake, chips, birds nests (chow mien noodles, marshmallow and Cadbury mini eggs)... Sigh. Pure utter fluff.
As always, I am glad when I slip, although this was a landslide ;[! It solidifies what I know is true for me. It's been 6 months... half a friggin' year! Imagine that. Woot woot! Okay, those of you who are by the books, with the slippin' and sliddin' it's probably 5.2 months? LOL!
With all this, I haven't gained any substantial weight, it fluctuated 5 pounds, which I consider water weight. So that's great however, the bloating, ugh. It feels like I've put it all back on. Wouldn't I be a wreck if I did... for two weeks of slippin'! Phew. I came out of this unscathed, I might not be that lucky next time. Hey there won't BE a NEXT time damn-it.
Okay... here's to re focusing.
Ok, well for a few hours it was FUN! And you didn't need to eat all of those nests!! LOL
ReplyDeleteI hear ya sista on the feelin' like crap for sliding, but gettin' back on is so much easier than it once was..... and high five for six!
I gotta say, no matter how many times I check the blog to see if there's anything new, it's totally worth it 'cause that picture just cracks me up!
ReplyDeleteThe party was a blast, cheap thrills and all, as thrills don't come often or easy now that we're entering MIDDLE AGEDNESS! May the next 40 be even better.
--D.