Didn't Explode

Today I witnessed some endearing long time friendships. Jessica's friends were delightful. The affection and adoration these woman have for one another was wonderful to witness and feel! Friendships where words aren't always needed and a smile means a million words. I felt the love.

Well, while I stared down a HOMEMADE oatmeal chocolate chip cookie and some yummy looking cupcakes, I succumbed to some sushi. AND I didn't explode. I didn't get shot down. Not sure what I was expecting to happen if I 'cheated' but nothing happened. LOL! I do feel a bit bloated but...

I discovered that grape tomatoes and blue cheese are meant for each other. BTW, I resisted crackers too.

For me, eating is a comfort. While I enjoyed myself at Jess's baby shower, I didn't know a lot of people and if I did, it was superficial. So I was forced into the pleasantries of what do you do, where do you live, how do you know Jess, blah blah blah... Sorry did I type that out?! LOL! While I was either forcing myself to chat or sitting back taking it all in, I noticed when I was very uncomfortable with the silence or conversation, I leaned toward the cheese in front of me. Something to do to fill the void. What's up with that? Am I alone on this? I didn't realize that food was attached in that way for me. It busies you. Diverts nerves.

What did I do once I realized this... I forced myself to sit there and simply observe and listen to all that was going on. Telling myself, it's okay to be sitting amongst these people AND NOT talk. Or if in a conversation, ride through the uncomfortable silences with a smile, no a mouthful of food. With the help of some deep breaths and some toe taps, a wonderful wave of calmness came over me. This time I managed to divert myself from some comfort eating. One down. Now to repeat.

That is that. Did I mention I loved the sushi.